HELLBOUND

They say the only constant in life is change. I find that true for most things except my family. My sisters are the one part of my life that has always been constant. They have always been there for me. The support and love I have from them never ceases to amaze me. These are the woman that have been my role models. I feel sorry for people that don't have role models in their own families. It must be tough to pick a stranger as a role model. I have been blessed to have three sisters. The girls have kept me steady over the years. I know I have a savior but before I had a savior I had sisters. When people in church try to give me a hard time about one of them not being saved I will always have the same answer. I tell them that God did not give me a sister to judge but a sister to love and be loved by. I may not have always been wise enough to thank God for them but that's the beauty of age we get wiser. My sisters have been more than just role models they have been my friends and my inspiration. Sure we fought as kids what sisters don't but we never had the harsh battles that some families have. There were times when it was us against everybody else. It was stand toegether or fall apart. We figured it out fairly young. It took us longer to figure out that God had created us as family so that we could support each other. He had also given us a mother. He created her to be a blessing to her children but satan warped that blessing. In satan she became a woman who did not want her children. That was not God's fault but our mothers she chose to turn away from God and blamed him for her life being sad. She did not have it easy but she made it harder on herself than it needed to be. She cursed God and opened the door for satan to walk right in and cause havoc among her family. I at one time hated her. I have since forgiven her and only feel sorry for her cause I am fairly sure that she died and went to hell. I can not be sure until I step into eternity and then and only then will I know for sure where our mother entered eternity. Like everyone else she had choices. She chose to blame and curse God. She chose to committ suicide by alcohol. Whether she entered eternity through the gates of hell or the gates of heaven the choice was hers. God sent blessings to her. She had six kids that would have loved her and stood with her had she given us the chance. God did not cause her situation he allowed it. These concepts are not interchangeable and do not mean the same thing.  I thank God for the second chances He kept sending my way that finally allowed me to stop cursing Him and start recognizing the good He had done in my life as a child. The good of my sisters who made sure I lived to reach adulthood. Sometimes we have to step back and step back again until we are far enough away from the rage to look at the situation calmly. When you can do that perphaps you will have a chance to see God for who He really is. If nothing else call out to Him he has very good hearing and would answer any child who would give Him a chance.